Had a long-awaited conversation with Wenzi last night. After wards, I thanked God for her and for our relationship and how we are able to communicate so well together. At the end, we prayed together for God to grant us courage and wisdom to live in the situations that we are in.
While feeling weary of what to do, I suddenly thought of Nelson Mandela. I thought about how he never backed down from what he believed in - that all human beings were created equal and each deserved to be treated with dignity. How did he do it? He never (or rarely) raised his voice against his abusers yet he was able to stand firm on his ground. I'm in no way comparing myself to Nelson because I am in no way as strong, or smart as him. But, what I'm dealing with is also something at a smaller level than fighting the apartheid. Or is it? Standing up for human dignity, no matter at which "level", is not to be put on a scale, while some being more moral (and therefore important and justifiable) than others.
I suppose this blog entry could detail the ways that I and the people I love have been mistreated. I could talk about the many shoulds and shouldn'ts, the things that each person deserves, and what we have to right to do or not to do. But, that would make it seem like I know what I'm talking about when these are merely my beliefs. Ultimately, God is the final judge. I am learning to say "I believe that..." rather than "It should be that...". I've come to realize that, precisley beacuse God has given each person a mind of their own to think, that each person can come to his/her conclusions about what he/she should do in a situation. Of course, we let God be our guide, and always (to our best) follow his way and his words when making our decisions. However, I believe God is an infinitely dynamic God, and he hasn't written a book on "What to do when..." for the difficult situations that we may encounter in life.
We each to know and seek God. To seek his will as he sees fit for each individual. It may be very different for each person. In the end, a small voice continues to speak in my heart. Something that tells me to not just "take it", not just "be quiet and things will be ok in a bit". There is something very unGodly and iherently wrong when a human being is being stripped of their God-given right dignity, and I don't know if I can ever grow "used to it" or stay silent.
I suppose this blog entry could detail the ways that I and the people I love have been mistreated. I could talk about the many shoulds and shouldn'ts, the things that each person deserves, and what we have to right to do or not to do. But, that would make it seem like I know what I'm talking about when these are merely my beliefs. Ultimately, God is the final judge. I am learning to say "I believe that..." rather than "It should be that...". I've come to realize that, precisley beacuse God has given each person a mind of their own to think, that each person can come to his/her conclusions about what he/she should do in a situation. Of course, we let God be our guide, and always (to our best) follow his way and his words when making our decisions. However, I believe God is an infinitely dynamic God, and he hasn't written a book on "What to do when..." for the difficult situations that we may encounter in life.
We each to know and seek God. To seek his will as he sees fit for each individual. It may be very different for each person. In the end, a small voice continues to speak in my heart. Something that tells me to not just "take it", not just "be quiet and things will be ok in a bit". There is something very unGodly and iherently wrong when a human being is being stripped of their God-given right dignity, and I don't know if I can ever grow "used to it" or stay silent.
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